Best Friends

Last night in redemption groups the conversation was over what we grumble about. I have my small list of grumblings, I’m typically not an external grumbler but I grumble in my heart.

1. The house not being clean

2. Money

3. Lack of sleep

4. Lack of friends

5. Lack of my husband wanting us to go out and have friends

The hardest one for me lately has been a lack of friends. A lot of my really good friends have moved away, we just had a baby, and my husband does not like to go out a whole lot (see grumble above). It’s been hard for me to be young and have two children, and still feel like I want to go out and have fun. Sometimes I selfishly feel tied down by having a husband and children (Is it just me?)!

After redemption groups last night I was laying in bed with my husband (kids asleep finally) and I was reading him my Psalm that I had to make in redemption groups. I was sharing with him my thoughts. We were laughing, we were praying and I was grateful for my best friend.

I had this sudden recollection of this feeling of frustration with him for the past couple of years of not really wanting to go out a whole lot and do things with our friends (BBQ’s, dinners, parties). And his reasoning was always “I just want to be home with you.”

All of the sudden last night I had an overwhelming gratitude towards Gods work in our lives. While I’ve been grumbling to God about my lack of friendships for this past season he has refined my relationship with my husband. I realize now that the reason God halted friendships is because he wanted me to draw near to my husband for comfort and to learn to be at peace at my home with my husband & children.

Will is my best friend. I am comfortable alone with him. We hold back no secrets, or fears, or dreams. I am grateful for that part of God’s story. For taking away something in order to give me something better. I’m glad I saw it last night – it felt amazing seeing God’s plan of redemption. I am blessed.